Where I am now.

It's been quite a year.

I'm back to work and my health is good for now.  I'm taking Kundalini yoga every Saturday and it kicks my ass.  And most recently I opened my heart up for the first time in years.  (He's not really available for a relationship much less dating but I finally am, so its all good.)  Oh yeah, most recently my hard drive crashed and I let go of two years of videos, pictures and documents.  LOL

I don't know why I stopped writing back in May.  Maybe I got busy living my life.  The daily practice of coming up with a blog is difficult, unless you are really keeping a journal of a project or just feel the need to put it all down day in, day out.

Today is the day my mother was born.  She has been gone as many years as she was alive, so I feel like this is a halfway point oddly enough.  Born in 1942, she died of a brain tumor in 1976.  Now here in 2010, I find myself reflecting on a distant time and place.  I get to visit my hometown next weekend for my 30th High School reunion.

Time has moved on in J-town, KY.  And yet I can step on to a street in my hometown and be transported back to my childhood in an instant.  The familiar places like city hall where my Uncle Franklin was mayor of J-town in the late 60s, or half a block down the house my dads cousins the Swetnam's, purchased where I learned what REAL hard work was, pouring a concrete sidewalk.  Or I drive by John F. Kennedy Elementary where I attended class with most of the people I will be having a reunion with next weekend.

There will be one person missing next weekend at our 30th reunion, our friend Scott Eisert. Scott and I along with Glenn Elder all did theatre together at J-town.   Scott will forever be Charlie Brown in my eyes.  Glenn and I shared the role of Linus.  Today is the one year anniversary of Scott's passing.

When he passed away last year I was filled with such grief.  For me and all of our mutual friends it was our own "Big Chill" moment.  It is a difficult thing when one of your peers passes away, especially if it is someone you knew from third grade on. 

Today I honor them both.  Fall is a bittersweet time for me.  I love visiting my hometown and city that I grew up in at fall time.  The trees are sometimes displaying fall colors and the air is chilly, other years its still very green and hot.  The world famous St. James Art Fair will be in full swing next weekend and I plan on going down to the art fair with my sister and reuniting with a few of our cousins.  It's sure to be an amazing trip.


I realize now why I stopped blogging....I was busy shooting footage for my new webshow idea, covering red carpet and charity events.  So you will see this blog evolve and change.  And I will write out my impressions of what I shot standing 3 Feet To The Left.  All things change.  We adapt to it in our every changing world.  Finally I've gotten to a place of loving myself enough to step out there as a performer again.  I've gotten an agent and my pictures are uploaded to LA CASTING the big site here that you must join in order to be sent out by an agent. My agent ACTUALLY has access to that account.  (I goofed on Sunday night, thank God for tech people at the website.)  And I am allowing myself the opportunity to enjoy the brief moment between fear and faith, anticipation and actuality.  The moment just before the miracle happens and I become what I have always dreamed.

Peace and blessings,
Gerry