PERSISTENCE

The art of love... is largely the art of persistence.  ~Albert Ellis

Up to this point I've had a hodge podge of different things on this blog that "somewhat" relate to love.  They have been things that I "love" and events I've attended or TV & theatre shows I've seen but tonight I really want to go within.  I really need to talk about self love.

This is something that has really been lacking in my life.  I don't know how many of you ACTUALLY read my blogs but it's been a long time in coming.  I've dealt with addiction for years and finally this past month or so I've come to a SERIES of little surrenders.  Mostly about finance and romance.  

This next year is a radical one.  

Like this blog that I do daily, I am attempting to do something pretty radical to get myself out from under the yoke of debt and depression around it.  I am paying off all the debt I have and taking steps to begin a retirement portfolio.  Let's face it, I thought years ago that I would be dead by now!  LOL  Surprise!  I'm still here.  So where to begin?

First step:  Spend money on only the basics, housing, food, utilites, car etc.
  
Step two:  Create more income than last year.

My problem this year was I made a nice amount of money last year AND had a small inheritance.  This year I spent like I was making the money I did LAST year.  Not a good idea.

Step three:  Trust that a higher power is in charge and open myself up to ALL the possibilites.
 
We'll see how far we get with this and through this experience I'll be able to share with all of you some of the great things that one can do for free in this great city I live in.  So I'm not planning any trips until next fall.  And if I have to pickup a part time job so be it.  But mostly I will know that the Universe/God is all conspiring for my good.
 
The focus this year is to launch myself into performing on stage and in front of the camera again.  And to begin doing VO work.  

But most importantly the one thing that takes priority over career is I must continue to take excellent care of myself.  It's amazing when you have a focus just what you can achieve.  

Tonight I watched the finale of Project Runway.  The final 3 girls had a vision, they stuck to it and then presented themselves and their creations to the world.  I don't plan on walking down any catwalks soon but know that after I put myself into my "physical bootcamp," I plan on looking DAMN good enough to walk down one. 

(Calvin Klein boys step aside, daddy walkin' the catwalk....in leather.  LOL)  
If only in my "mind!" 


IN the words of Tim Gunn....Make It Work!


GM